The Struggle of a Young Pastor

Writing has never been one of my strong points. But I have days where I feel as though if I do not write, my heart will burst out of my chest. Today is one of those days…

I often sit in a childish daydream pondering my life in five, ten, or twenty years from now. Will things be different? No doubt, yes, but will things be easier? That question is what haunts me, pursues me, and some days overtakes me in despair. Will loving, leading, and caring for my wife be easier in twenty years? Will leading a church be easier? What about preaching? Will preparing for a new sermon week after week become easier? What about the weightiness of souls? Will the heavy burden of church members’ souls become lighter as years go by? As silly as these questions can be, I find myself wrestling often with them.